To expand our family we have started the process of fertility medication. I never imagined that I would know my vaginal ultrasound doctor by name, that hormone pills have extremely weird side effects, that I would seemingly get over my fear of shots because needles are the easy part or that bursting into tears over nothing while making dinner was a possibility because the estrogen levels are just to much. . However, I also would have never been able to experience the incredible patience that my husband has, the feeling of completeness that comes from a night of crying out to God with frustration, the comfort of my husbands voice after another failed pregnancy test reminding me that I'm not broken, and the graciousness of friends who have allowed me to call them at unseemly hours to hear my cries.  In our case it truly takes a village to have a child and for those of you who have been by our side you will never understand how grateful that we are to you. 

To our friends and family. Mainly we ask for your prayers. That God may show us how he wants us to proceed and that he may bestow on us a miracle. We know that our God is a good God and to quote C.S. Lewis " I am sure that God keeps no one waiting unless he sees that it is good for him to wait."  Our father knows our souls better than I could ever even begin to fathom. Somehow, someway this is apart of his plan. Too much focus has been placed on the bad things that the  devil has placed in our lives. Instead we need to focus on the fact that God has allowed this trial in our life for some reason he has deemed it good for us to wait. He hasn't been caught off guard by my medical issues and if he wanted us to have a child at this very second he would make it happen. Instead, at least for a little while, our precious savior has called Tim and I to wait. Waiting isn't easy and it doesn't feel good, but somewhere in the silence God is using this situation to further His glory.Even if we never receive an answer to our prayers our savior is still good and he is still mighty. We ask that you pray for patience as we go through this journey together. 

To Elihu/Elise your father and I have prayed for you with everything that we have. No matter what may happen in this life we will always be here for you. Even before you were born we have been trying to make the best decisions for you from the medicine your mom takes to the amount of caffeine that I consume in the morning you are always on our minds. As sure as I breathe I can tell you this, you will experience trials in your life, you will experience pain, heartache and sorrow your father and I will try to protect you from these things, but we will fail you., Above all else realize that in the pain and suffering that IS NOT where your story ends. Jesus loved us so much that he sent His son to die for us so that if we trust in him we may spend eternity with Him. Your father and I will fail you, but no matter what pain you may go through in this life realize that your heavenly father will never fail you and he has never left his throne. The struggles that we may face in this life are nothing compared to the glories that are to come. Beauty will always rise from the ashes and God is always good.